It’s been nearly 12 years since the tragic death of beloved ‘Crocodile Hunter,’ Steve Irwin. But for his wife, Terri Irwin, the grief is still very much present.
The 53 year old – who is a fierce anti crocodile culling campaigner – will appear later tonight on Sunday Night to talk to Denham Hitchcock as part of his investigation into a terrifying croc attack in Far North QLD, and the raging debate around crocodile culling in Australia.
During the course of the interview, Terri, 53 opened up about the loss of Steve – who died at the age of 44 after being pierced in the heart by a stingray while filming a documentary in Queensland-and her ongoing grief.
“For years I still had Steve’s clothes in the cupboard,” she admitted.
“Every day it’s difficult, and after 11 years the grief goes from being a rock in your heart to walking beside you,” came her heartbreaking confession.
“It’s always there, and I never really know when it’s going to hit me. And sometimes it can be the most inopportune time that I feel overwhelmingly emotional but, you know, it’s okay.”
“Do I miss him? Constantly. But I think I was so lucky to get my happily ever after. I married this great guy who was a stack of fun and we went on all these adventures, he was very strong-willed, we had these great arguments about things, it was just the most fantastic time of my life. The best part are our two kids. We ended up with two perfect children.”
“He (Steve) had such a love and passion for crocodiles,” she said. “That honestly was what first attracted me to him, besides the fact that he was a pretty fine-looking bloke. He spoke of them with such love and compassion … it was impossible not to fall in love with crocs around Steve because he had such an affinity for them and understood them so well.”
The couple had two children together — Bindi, 19, and Robert, 14. Steve was recently honoured with a posthumous star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame.
This article originally appeared on New Idea.