"When I got home from tour, I had really wild dizzy spells, this feeling like I couldn’t breathe," Ari told ELLE. "I would be in a good mood, fine and happy, and they would hit me out of nowhere. I’ve always had anxiety, but it had never been physical before. There were a couple of months straight where I felt so upside down."
That whole upside-down theme was explored in the video for her hit single "No Tears Left To Cry".
She also explained how her upcoming song "Get Well Soon" references the attack.
"It’s all the voices in my head talking to one another," she explained.
"'They say my system is overloaded'" she sings, "and then the background vocals say, 'Girl, what’s wrong with you? Come back down.'"
She also explained how "terrifying" it is to get back on stage now, but she gains her strength from fans who still attend her shows without fear.
While crying, she explains, "It’s the most inspiring thing in the world that these kids pack the venue. They’re smiling, holding signs saying, ‘Hate will never win.’ Why would I second-guess getting on a f*cking stage and being there for them? That city, and their response? That changed my life."